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4月27日 Be with you - FinalAll i could recall is we were heading home from the mall. Tired and weary. Next thing i knew, the car in front of me hit the brakes, i tapped mine too. And i woke up in the emergency room with a nurse asking if i knew my name and where i was.
Our car had skidded onto the wrong side of the road where another car hit the passenger side head on. I had minor cuts and bruises, but Kenzo was flung out of the car. He was declared dead on arrival, but the doctors managed to restart his heart.
I was stunned when i saw him. His face was covered with all bruises. He was on a respirator and hooked on moniters, with tubes everywhere. He lingered in a deep coma. . so long that i could not recall how long it's been. Everytime i see him, i blame myself. I was so sure it wouldn't have happened if he was driving. I just get the feeling "As each days goes by, it is less likely for Kenzo to open his eyes". Or "If Kenzo wakes up, he is unlikely to be the same man he used to be". . . One week, One month, Two months turned in and still..
Mom would usually wrap her arms around me to comfort me. "It's okay darling, as long as he is still alive". Deep down in my heart, i knew what she meant. But i'm so desperate for a miracle. Every hours spent beside him, i hope for a miracle. A movement. Or he would whisper my name. . But it never happened.
I broke down 4 months after our accident. The doctors told us that his body is deteriorating. And that he is still breathing just because he is supported by the respirator. Almost every part of him died. Except for his brain. What about me? I wish i was dead too. It was the saddest moment, to see my beloved darling go. I asked if i could shut down the respirator. It was not right. But they allowed me to. As my fingers and hands trembled, i knew i just had to do it. "I love you" were the last words i whispered in his ears. There's so much i'd wanna tell him, so much that i've said for the past four months. I knew that even a lifetime wouldn't be sufficient. But it's okay, i knew deep in, he would always be there for me.
Autumn has never felt this good. I blew kisses in the wind because i know the wind will lead my kisses to you, no matter where you are. "I love you for better or worse". You will forever etched in my heart. "Don't worry me darling, i'll get through every single day even without your presence. I will not give up on my own life and i will fight my way through this surgery". Love you till i die~
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